Sunday, September 18, 2005

Blow out the Candles...Pop the Balloons...Reflecting on 27

So - it's that big day I guess...comes and goes every year with the anxious anti-anticipation! As soon as Labour Day hits, I cringe with the realization that time is flying by me...another year bites the dust and another lies in the looming future. My age keeps cranking up the volume (not that I feel my age, but then how is 27 supposed to feel like?) With shrinking demographics and biological clocks, I guess one might greet 27 with fear...I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME! But I'm learning to greet it with trust...scary concept for any control freak!
This past week was brutal...and so thoughts of facing another birthday was icing on the cake (note the sarcasm). This year I had an amazing time with friends and family over a low-key outdoor dinner party, and an open grill after church! It was an amazing evening to share with those closest to me and feel blessed. Blessed for having the support and inspiration of such a wonderful group of peeps. For those of you who live on the other side of the planet...a place was set for you in my heart. Who I am today - making it through so many years - is a reflection of your influence in my life. I AM because I'm loved.
I don't feel a year older (I never do!), but I do feel a year wiser. There's so many things I've learned - most the hard way! God has been patient and gracious as always (some things never change!) and the journey has been "interesting". Kindof a cliche statement, I know, but I really don't know how else to state it. Sometimes I can get so caught up in the path 5 minutes down the road, that I forget to enjoy where I'm walking now!
I'm warming up to Ontario a bit more than when I first returned from BC (although there's chunks of my heart that remain there and somewhere in So.Cal!) God really had to teach me some more patience and contentment...I mean, Brantford would not be my first choice for hometown roots - but purpose, right? That's what we're all on this planet for. And as I settle into my second year back, I see where He has been laying foundations for some exciting opportunities. Don't think I'm done travelling tho!!! I still have the bug, but given my track record, it will be a 5-year stint at home and a sibling getting married before I head out again! (I'm hoping I don't have to wait for Johan!!)
There's something about a new year hovering before you that causes a wry smile. So much can happen in a year...so much change! So many fresh pages - unwritten and waiting. What will it be this year? But before I shave my head, elope with a struggling artist, or start booking flights...my compass needs to be set on my Source. He needs to come first in my heart and my thoughts...in my decisions. May this next year celebrate HIM!