29 and holding...oops! I let go...
The inevitable has happened.
The doomsday preachers have said their piece
and the cake has been cut.
Anti-aging cream is apparently my new best friend,
reminding me that altho I may LOOK like I'm a teenager...
I have ascended past the hallways of awkward puberty and 80's fashions,
danced through the roarin' twenties -
across countries and continents,
through education and occupations -
and arrived at the doorway of the next dimension.
30.
The rumoured age of the awakening to life -
after spending the last decade or so figuring out who you are,
establishing what you want to do,
and pointing yourself in the general direction...
This is the age of unleashing.
This past week I took a good look at the last three decades of my life. I didn't really have time to take a DEEP gander - as always, long amounts of free time seems to be elusive in my life - but I did get enough of a glance to be amazed at where God has led me - especially the last 10 years. Birthdays are definitely days for reality checks and perspective points.
While there have been those who are constantly reminding me of the facts that life is now over, the demographics are shrinking, and the glaring reality that I'm still inhabiting a room @ my rents - I am refusing to accept this transition as anything less than my next adventure - free from the pressures of the mold! I am bound and determined to redefine what 30 looks like (dun dun dun)...and after that...maybe take over the world!!!
All joking aside, a friend had written on my wall that life starts @ 30. For illustration purposes, Jesus started His ministry @ 30...to think of what He accomplished in the 3 years following, and how it has impacted the planet over the last 2000 years is incredible!
Now I know I'm not called to save the planet...someone's already done that.
But I also know God has purposes in my life that He is bringing to completion.
After all the hype and anticipation of the upcoming transition, I had a good idea of where I wanted to be launching my next 30 years from - especially on a spiritual level.
Ideas. Expectations. Direction. Good intentions.
My horse was restless in the gates - anxious to start the race.
But instead at leading the pack from the gun shot,
I found myself on my knees,
humbly reminded that I'd tried to leave the gate without the key element:
The jockey.
Then Christ will make his home in your hearts
as you trust in him.
Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong.
And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should,
how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.
May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully.
Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.
Now all glory to God, who is able,
through his mighty power at work within us,
to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
Do you ever wonder what a heavenly sigh sounds like?
It's not the most comforting of sounds - but its origins lie in the patient love of a Father.
I felt such a sigh this week - as my whining prayers made even ME shake my head.
I was frustrated.
I already knew the answer to my problem.
I was just being lazy in dealing with it.
In my haste to make the next 30 count, I had focused on what I wanted to do,
instead of who I was doing it with.
I was busy preparing and planning...
instead of trusting and growing.
In our attempts to be intentional, fruitful Christians, we often forget the key element that will allow us to accomplish this effortlessly.
It is taking the time to be rooted in God...
trusting Him with every aspect of our existence...
being in absolute and complete awe at the width, the height, the depth of His love!
(Have you ever just sat for a moment and thought of God's love?
I highly recommend it.
It's life-changing.)
Above all else He wants to know and be known by us.
He wants us to understand the beat of His heart.
He desires us to take up residence there.
For it is only after training our hearts and minds to feel His pulse in this world
that He will be able to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
I don't know about you, but I don't want to spend the next years of my life stumbling in weakness when I've been given the keys to strength.
I don't want to be depleting my energy "doing", because Infinitely greater things don't matter if you don't know the person you're doing it for.
I don't want to be a plant that has only enough water to survive.
I want to thrive.
I want to grow daily.
I want my roots to reach into the depths of God's love.
I want to trust Him fully.
And it starts with a choice,
investing the time
in intentional relationship
with the One who has the power
and is able
and waiting...
So if you don't mind, I gotta jet...
my back burner is calling me....
The doomsday preachers have said their piece
and the cake has been cut.
Anti-aging cream is apparently my new best friend,
reminding me that altho I may LOOK like I'm a teenager...
I have ascended past the hallways of awkward puberty and 80's fashions,
danced through the roarin' twenties -
across countries and continents,
through education and occupations -
and arrived at the doorway of the next dimension.
30.
The rumoured age of the awakening to life -
after spending the last decade or so figuring out who you are,
establishing what you want to do,
and pointing yourself in the general direction...
This is the age of unleashing.
This past week I took a good look at the last three decades of my life. I didn't really have time to take a DEEP gander - as always, long amounts of free time seems to be elusive in my life - but I did get enough of a glance to be amazed at where God has led me - especially the last 10 years. Birthdays are definitely days for reality checks and perspective points.
While there have been those who are constantly reminding me of the facts that life is now over, the demographics are shrinking, and the glaring reality that I'm still inhabiting a room @ my rents - I am refusing to accept this transition as anything less than my next adventure - free from the pressures of the mold! I am bound and determined to redefine what 30 looks like (dun dun dun)...and after that...maybe take over the world!!!
All joking aside, a friend had written on my wall that life starts @ 30. For illustration purposes, Jesus started His ministry @ 30...to think of what He accomplished in the 3 years following, and how it has impacted the planet over the last 2000 years is incredible!
Now I know I'm not called to save the planet...someone's already done that.
But I also know God has purposes in my life that He is bringing to completion.
After all the hype and anticipation of the upcoming transition, I had a good idea of where I wanted to be launching my next 30 years from - especially on a spiritual level.
Ideas. Expectations. Direction. Good intentions.
My horse was restless in the gates - anxious to start the race.
But instead at leading the pack from the gun shot,
I found myself on my knees,
humbly reminded that I'd tried to leave the gate without the key element:
The jockey.
Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him.
Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong.
And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should,
how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.
May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully.
Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.
Now all glory to God, who is able,
through his mighty power at work within us,
to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
Do you ever wonder what a heavenly sigh sounds like?
It's not the most comforting of sounds - but its origins lie in the patient love of a Father.
I felt such a sigh this week - as my whining prayers made even ME shake my head.
I was frustrated.
I already knew the answer to my problem.
I was just being lazy in dealing with it.
In my haste to make the next 30 count, I had focused on what I wanted to do,
instead of who I was doing it with.
I was busy preparing and planning...
instead of trusting and growing.
In our attempts to be intentional, fruitful Christians, we often forget the key element that will allow us to accomplish this effortlessly.
It is taking the time to be rooted in God...
trusting Him with every aspect of our existence...
being in absolute and complete awe at the width, the height, the depth of His love!
(Have you ever just sat for a moment and thought of God's love?
I highly recommend it.
It's life-changing.)
Above all else He wants to know and be known by us.
He wants us to understand the beat of His heart.
He desires us to take up residence there.
For it is only after training our hearts and minds to feel His pulse in this world
that He will be able to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
I don't know about you, but I don't want to spend the next years of my life stumbling in weakness when I've been given the keys to strength.
I don't want to be depleting my energy "doing", because Infinitely greater things don't matter if you don't know the person you're doing it for.
I don't want to be a plant that has only enough water to survive.
I want to thrive.
I want to grow daily.
I want my roots to reach into the depths of God's love.
I want to trust Him fully.
And it starts with a choice,
investing the time
in intentional relationship
with the One who has the power
and is able
and waiting...
So if you don't mind, I gotta jet...
my back burner is calling me....
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